Well, in light of recent events, I suppose I am going to dress up this year as “Crash Test Dummy” Fits doesn’t it?
Ok, so I tried to get a massage yesterday in hopes that it would relieve my back. Nope. Felt nice at the time.. but OH MY GOSH I can’t believe how much pain I am in. It seems to be getting worse and worse as each day progresses. I am having a hard time sitting at my desk, I don’t know what to do. I thought about going to a chiropractor to adjust my spinal cord, as I believe that is obviously what is causing this. I can’t imagine what else it could be.
So I had no clue how much pain this would cause.. my back hurts the WORST. it aches and aches.. Mornings are the hardest time of the day.. My leg has been elevated for the most part, all night, and then trying to stand, and all the blood rushing down, holy hell shit it hurts. And crutches.. don’t get me started. I BLOODY HATE THEM.. They are causing rashes on my sides, and my arms.. my hands are bruised from the hand grip thingys.. SUCKS big time. It’s been over a week now, and I am soooo tired of being in pain all the time.. I wish I could get my Back to stop hurting!! I could at least function better..
So, it was bound to happen eventually, I crashed my quad. The last couple times haven’t been too bad.. some scratched up plastics… a bit of road rash.. not too bad. This time was a little different. So we were all going across the lakebed about 40mph. I’ve done this a million times. I *thought* we were already passed the bomb craters so I was haulin ass. There was a fair amount of dust blowin around from all the bikes, and once that cleared up I was right on top of a huge crater. I kinda knew already that I was done. There was another one right behind it, so there was no saving myself. I just hung on and hoped for the best. I recall hitting the crater, and trying to correct the wheels to land, and that’s about it. My girlfriend was behind me in the Rhino, and saw the whole thing. She said that I held on for two flips, and then the bike threw me about 20 feet. It certainly *FEELS* like it. (Thank God the kid was back at camp riding in the kids buggy with the boys and didn’t see it) I don’t recall who was around me, as I was disoriented. I remember trying to get up, but I was in a lot of pain and fell back down. I recall my friend helping me to my feet and trying to get me to the Rhino. I stood on my left leg, and then started to walk. My right leg just rolled inside my boot and felt like mush. I about took her 110lb ass down with me. I didn’t recognize where we were, and I got a bit scared.. I don’t like that feeling AT ALL. Anyhow, the ambulance took me to the ER in Joshua Tree (NEVER go to hi desert medical center). It sucked ass. They took xrays of my back and my ankle that I figured was broken. Turns out, my back is good, however, every single muscle back there tightened up to prepare for the fall and has since stayed in that position.. HURTS LIKE HELL. My ankle was ok.. not broken.. Thank Goodness. Oh but wait, your Tibia and Fibula are both broken in half. So much for hoping it was dislocated. So they picked me up, and we went back to camp.. I got a nice shower, and went to bed. Funny thing is, I have two bones that are in HALF in my leg, and it doesn’t hurt near as bad as my back… O well.. Because the breaks are so nice (nice?? that’s what my orthopedic said), I don’t have to have surgery so long as I stay off my right leg for 6 weeks. Try driving with a right broken leg.. HAHA Gas with right toes, break with left foot.. kinda fun! CRUTCHES SUCK!! Anyone know what I should do to stop getting a rash on my sides?? Anyway, I should be able to walk by December 1st, and with a couple weeks of rehab, back on my bike for New Years… Oh, after I fix one of the broken arm thingys that goes to the wheel, the skid plate, and my clutch. My ice chest rack is all tweaked, but I’m leaving that alone.. It’s “custom” now.. 🙂 Need a reminder..
I have been doing a lot of thinking these past couple months… well, more like weeks about the ability to change yourself in an attempt to “help” others change. Sound weird? Ya, I know. Here’s the deal: You can’t change how someone treats you. You really can’t change anything about someone else. What you CAN do, is change who YOU are as a person, and that itself, in return allows others to treat you differently/better etc…
So I took my kid camping and dirt biking this weekend… Thought it was going to be a beautiful weekend.. Anyway, so she has her quad and LOVES it.. Kicks ass on it. Well, all of the kids out there were boys on dirt bikes. She couldn’t keep up on her quad, so she was getting kinda pissed off. So my buddy’s neighbor (Unbelievable patience!) said he would teach her to ride a dirt bike. Wow. My kid did GREAT! I was really impressed. She didn’t fall, and she even started to learn how to shift! I took some pictures of her and can’t wait to see how they turned out. She was awesome this weekend. So I putzed around with all the kids.. The adults all took off to ride, and I hung with the kiddie bunch, and had a ball.. Did some serious off roading, and made new trails. Took a couple out in the rhino and that was fun.. Didn’t scare them too bad. 😉 Took my godson (2) on the kids quad, and he had so much fun… Kept telling me “Go Auntie, Go!” THAT was a blast right there.. It was very cool to just hang with the kids.. I think we crashed out at like 730 saturday night.. LONG DAY.
Nothing really new on my end… there’s so much bullshit going on in my life, and I have come to find in some of those aspects, that I am a coward. Plain and simple. I know what my downfalls/weaknesses are. Ok, pretty sure. But you know what, it kinda sucks when you KNOW that some of these can be greatly improved if you removed certain things out of your life.. But, it also sucks when you get so accustomed to something that this shit becomes part of you. Change sucks. And it hurts. But, that said.. I really want to start making some changes, and pick myself up by the bootstraps (do people wear those anymore?) dust my butt off and see what types of changes I can make. I REALLY wish it would cool down so that I can start riding my mountain bike again.. lately it’s just been unbearably hot and I am too tired by 11pm to go riding when it’s actually cooler. I mean, a couple nights ago, it was still like 90 and humid at 10pm! No thanks.. My fat butt can wait another week or so to get to exercisin’ again…