Times change..

I am not even sure where to begin today.  Yesterday I buried my dear Friend Laurie.  She was 41 years young.  She was my big buddy in High School.  We shared a few classes together with the same teacher, Mr. Hufferd aka “Huff”.  He was there at the services.  After it was over, the girls (Tiffany, Brittany & Shannon) and I took Huff to lunch. We had a lovely time.  I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with Huff who will be turning 80 about the same time I will be turning 40 next year.  I was really disappointed by the lack of “friends” from HS to show up for the services.  I know everyone is different and they all “have lives” to live etc.. but I can’t wrap my head around, what is SOOO important in your great life, that you couldn’t take a few hours out of your day to say good bye to a friend.  Granted, there have been 1 maybe 2 funerals I did not attend because I would have been a broken down blubbering mess and ruined everything.  But I just can’t see that what 30-40 people would have done the same at one funeral?  Anyway, that has been weighing heavily on my mind today.  I have no family, so to spend time with Huff listening to stories gave me a sense of “family” again and that was very comforting to me.  I miss Laurie.  She was at my house last for a gathering of friends before I moved.  Those happen now and again, but it won’t be the same without her.  I think I’ll have to do another one anyway, around Christmas time, and host friends that ARE still around.. My brain is having a hard time adjusting and many thoughts flying around.  Dano saw Lauries picture on the funeral card, and exclaimed “WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME IT WAS HER!?”  I didn’t think Dano remembered her, she only saw her a handful of times, and it wasn’t like Dano was really interested or so I thought.  She was upset at me for not letting her go with me, but I had to be Mom and made her attend school.  It’s just how it is.  I miss Laurie’s smile, and laughter, and her ability to make you smile even if you are in a crying fit.  Her sarcasm taught me so well, and that will be missed terribly.  I am really not sure where to go with this, I think I just needed to write it down so I didn’t keep dwelling..  I can’t wait to meet up with her again some day.  

One of Laurie’s Favorite sayings… 🙂 


All moved in… Sorta..

So Dano and I are finally moved in for the most part..  I still have some boxes of shit in the garage, I really need to go thru and just donate to clean up some space.  I LOVE the new house.  A lot. 🙂  It’s too big, but I don’t care. Dano is OVER THE MOON.  She has a new BFF next door, named Kira (pronounced like Keira as in Knightly) and they are inseparable. She got two puppies (well, 9 months old or so)  Black mouth Cur is the breed… ADORABLE!! Love them.  Well, I love all dogs… (bigger than a terrier tho, I can’t stand yippy dogs… )  They are howling at night because they are new to the house.. Well, let me back up a second.. Lilah, my BABY great dane / pit mix is a SCAREDY CAT!  4th of July, she FLIPPED out during fireworks.. she’d never seen them so they scared the shit outta her 😦  Well, last night (a week after the holiday) I tried taking Lilah out front again.  NOPE. Dragged my ass back to the front door.. Poor thing, I’ll keep trying.  The kids lit off LOUD ass fireworks last night.. FREAKED my baby out, AGAIN.  She ran FLED into the house, THROUGH the screen door, upstairs to MY room, into my closet.  I HATE that she is so afraid… long story short, I worked with her a while, and got her back outside.  Then the two puppies next door started howling.  It sounded soo funny to me, but poor Lilah, has her head cocked to the side, and her ears back (looks like she’s in a wind tunnel)… and starts howling at them.  I gave up and took her with me to take a bath and relax… I bathed, she laid in the closet watching me.  
Hhhmmm that got a little off topic!  LOL  Back to Dano.. so she decided last night, she wants to stay home and hang out with the kids today.  I’m all for that, but her dad doesn’t think she’s old enough to be home alone.  Well, technically it’s not home alone.. it’s hanging out with friends in the neighborhood… and their Moms are home.  (I’m jealous… I want to be home too!)  As y’all know, Dano tells me everything… So last night she tells me, Mom, the girls want to try to sneak into the movies tomorrow.  Ok, have fun.  I don’t have a problem with her doing that, but explained what happens when they get caught, and that it won’t turn out well, and that she should try to talk to the girls today before attempting this, to try to sway them.  I don’t know if it’ll work but she said she’d call me.   What I wouldn’t give to be her age again, and have close friends… (I didn’t have any, long boring story… ) 
I hope she has fun, learns from her mistakes, and ALWAYS ALWAYS feels that she can tell me anything.. That is my biggest fear, that she will stop… and that I won’t know her anymore.. She’s growing up sooo fast.  Anyway… Happy Monday 🙂