Siblings..

Ok, so for those of you that are only kids… congrats. If you have siblings.. sorry bout your luck. I am kind of hoping that MOST siblings get a long really well. I may be delusional, but I’m sure most do, however, I am just dysfunctional perhaps. I don’t really talk to my siblings. I have one of each, a brother and a sister. Good thing is I dislike them both the same. Equal opportunity disliker so to speak. You are supposed to be there for your siblings.. for support, and comfort oh yea, and to be taken advantage of… repeatedly. That IS normal right? Yea, I didn’t think so.
You can’t TELL your siblings outright because they never believe you. Or anyone else for that matter really. As long as whatever you are doing helps them somehow. Usually in my case it is FINANCIAL assistance. And of course, I get screwed ALMOST every time. The sister usually does pay back when she says she will, but the brother, now he is certainly a piece of work. NEVER pays back.. and as a matter of fact, continues to keep borrowing more. Of course, that is MY fault to keep allowing that to occur. Even in JAIL, it happens. With the brother, it’s like a plague. And when he doesn’t get his way? LOOK THE HELL OUT. According to him, you will be spat upon, disowned, and anything else he can think of to piss you off for NOT helping him. I have always done whatever I can for the brother, but I finally lost all respect for him. He is a childish immature spoiled brat who cares about NO ONE but himself. It really hurts me to see him the way he is. I used to chalk up his shitty~ness to all the drugs he used to do. I mean, that made so much sense back then. But, unfortunately, he is still the selfish little bastard he always has been. Pity too, because he could be soo much more. The sister, she’s just who she is. We have NEVER really gotten along.. maybe for like an hour here and there. I don’t care for the person she is, and she will use anyone she can for her benefit. She will throw me under the bus, and take sides with ANYONE but me.. LOL I’m used to her.. and VERY glad I don’t have to maintain any relationship with her right now. She’s pregnant, and too volatile to be around. I don’t even want my kid around her. Not sure how her boyfriend deals with her. Like I said she and I have never really gotten along.. and I can’t see that it will change any time soon. Shame too, I miss my niece and won’t be meeting my new niece any time soon. How we were all cut from the SAME cloth is really BEYOND me…. This isn’t about being angry or pissed off or anything like that. I think this is more about me trying to “LET IT GO” and finally wash my hands of it all. I guess, I FINALLY hit the end of the line. I can’t do it anymore with them. My kid is the MOST important thing in my life right now, and we are happy. I want to keep it that way, so if that means, it’s just the two of us… So be it.

“Karma is a bitch… What goes around comes around..”

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Life..

Ok, now back to the regularly scheduled (ha!) blogging.. 😀
Anyway, so the last few weeks have been a little hectic. I went to the “parent/teacher” conference at school. Turns out my kid is pretty dang smart, just really BORED. Ok, not too bad. Maybe.
So.. we are working on this “talking” problem she has. Seems so far, it’s been working. She hasn’t “pulled a card” or been busted for talking or getting up. We’ll see how long that lasts..
My brother got out of jail, (that was fun! NOT) and he has been shipped off to Idaho to go live with the Folks. Good times. 😀 Really tho, I’m glad for him. I am happy it’s all over, that he’s out of jail (I don’t have to go every week for visitation).. and even that he is living in another state. BUT, I miss him already. We got to talk for a couple hours before I had to leave for work, and it reminded me how similar and how damn funny we are!! It’s all good.
I just got back from working in Atlanta… decided that is yet another state I do not want to live in. 😀
I like Hot. Hot is good.. HUMID, HOT AND STICKY.. Not good. 😦 Glad to be back home tho. Really. And the time difference is a total mess… I just get back to a little bit of normal and we get to change the time again this weekend… OY!
Riding / Camping season is upon us.. The BEST time of year to hang out with my kid and just relax and enjoy life.. I for one will be enjoying as many weekends as possible out in the “DIRT” with her and appreciating the desert… I mean really.. is there anything better?

Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that is the stuff life is made of.”
Benjamin Franklin

Me Time..

Well, I got my “Me” time.. LOL. I got sick. Had to take time off work, and spent 4 days just relaxing and resting and sleeping. A LOT. 14 or so hours a night, and then napping during the day. To be honest.. It was really nice. Anyway, my brother finishes his time in 6 days. Then he’s off to Idaho to live with the folks. I”m happy for him, he really needs to get out of here.. I’ll be leaving around the same time to go out of state for work. Just for a couple days, but it will be really nice to get away for that short period of time.
Because I have been doing everything for everyone else lately, I seem to have been neglecting my kid. Not in the sense that I don’t talk to her or ignore her. I have just assumed she was doing well at school, and doing homework as she should. Ya, Not exactly. Now, I’m having issues with her… She doesn’t seem to want to do any school work. Or stop talking during class. Or stop getting out of her seat.. Go figure. I could say “she’s 7, they do that”, but I think it’s more of a lack of my parenting skills. Or maybe teaching skills. So I need to spend more time with her, and “teach” her things. I’m not the smartest person, but I think I have some things that I can teach her to maybe help her along. All I want is for her to succeed. Somehow. And I will do whatever I have to, to help her. She is going to have it better than I did. I want her to have everything she wants, but to also APPRECIATE it all.
Ok, enough of my whining.. She is a good kid tho. I know she is normal. Well, as far as normal goes right?

“A characteristic of the normal child is he doesn’t act that way very often.” Author Unknown