It’s interesting reading back on this blog. It’s been around for 5 years now. I think it’s probably the longest I have been “committed” to something other than my kid or my dogs. LOL Anyway, I came across this post, I think it was my 2nd post on this blog. It’s weird when you stop and think about how much life changes over the years, but when you REALLY think about it, does anything really change? This is years ago… but still fits me today.. to the T.
Happy Friday y’all..
Monday, July 9, 2007
Sleep..
I can’t imagine this is insomnia, and I can’t take anything at night time for fear I will be completely worthless in the morning, or I won’t wake up enough if something were wrong with my daughter.
So I continue to lay here, with thoughts dancing in my head, and worries and frets about the coming days’ activities.. Sweet Dreams or nightmares?
How do you know who it is that you are meant for? How do you know what is supposed to happen in your life? How do you know when everything falls into place? How do you know why things happen “for a reason”? How do you know where all of this will happen? You don’t get to know. It just is. So now I will try to go back to sleep and stop worrying about all of this.. because it just is.
Surreal. Convoluted. Empty
A plethora of emotions
haunting at the same time..
A sea of smoke
fills the room
and burns my eyes..
Daring tears to fall
my eyes close
until sleep finally takes over…..