Sorry, but that just SUCKS. I mean, the day after Halloween, they start with the Christmas music. I remember (not too long ago I thought) when Christmas music didn’t start until the day after Thanksgiving… what happened?!?! In a couple years, they’ll start the “CHRISTMAS SEASON” on July 5th. Blech.
Well, after spending MANY years with a multitude of family and them slowly dying or moving away, Christmas became rather Blah. Then came the kid. And of course, as she gets older, Christmas is becoming a little more fun I guess. Just seeing her light up putting up decorations is just great. I decided when the kid was born that I wasn’t going to do the whole red/green Christmas colors anymore.. Too many memories from Me being a kid.. I like Blue. So I changed Christmas at my house to Blue, White and Silver. (Not for any religions reasons, I just like it). And so does she. So tonight, I think after school me and the kid are going to start the Christmas festivities and begin decorating. That really sets it off for me.. Seeing her get so excited about it all. Kinda nice for me too tho, I let her decorate how ever she wants. So she is rather proud of herself for a great job, and I get to see all her hard work and that big huge smile on her face…
So, the holidays are coming, and ok, I’m getting a little better with it all.. I’ll let ya know how the decorating goes…
“Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family:
Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.” Jane Howard
Ok, so I couldn’t wait til tomorrow.. Had to get it out now..
I know for most people, human nature is to help others.. Yes, I said MOST people. I am the type of person that will give you the shirt off my back. And… with no problems.. I rarely, if ever, expect anything in return. Sometimes, it would be nice if ever I needed help from someone, it would be returned, but hey.. not always the case. I don’t expect it from everyone, but it would be so great for ONE person, just one, to come to my rescue.. ever. So like I said, I am always trying to help someone.. whether family or friends.. even friends of friends I may not even know very well.
Here is my dilemma. How many times does it take to help someone that keeps on shitting on you that you say enough is enough? How many times do you touch the flame before you finally figure out that it’s HOT? How many times can you kick a dog before it turns on you and bites you? For me, it’s obviously TOO MANY. I’m tired. I am really tired of going out of my way for what? Nothing. Nada. Zilch.
Now, that’s not to say that I won’t forget how hot that flame is and go back again.. Been there, Done that. But come on.. it would be so nice for someone to ask me “Hey, can I help YOU with that? (or anything for that matter).. ” Don’t get me wrong.. I’m not feeling sorry for myself.. or anything like that.. Because I really don’t feel sorry for myself. Sometimes, it just SUCKS is all… Does this make me selfish now? I mean, it is a rare day that I am completely selfish and just do for me, but aren’t we supposed to do that on occasion?? I’m just venting I guess about how some people just aren’t the “giving” type. And then there are those people like me. Hopefully there are some left.
“Who are we to be better or less than another? We are all equal and should be treated as such.”
Ok, So I am BEYOND pissed at damn near everyone in my life right now… NO.. Not everyone.. but after I cool down, and regain some idea of composure so as not to say things I probably shouldn’t, I shall enlighten you all tomorrow with the wonderful workings of my “GREAT” family and friends… Ya.. Beer flew outta my nose too..
Ok, now back to the regularly scheduled (ha!) blogging.. 😀
Anyway, so the last few weeks have been a little hectic. I went to the “parent/teacher” conference at school. Turns out my kid is pretty dang smart, just really BORED. Ok, not too bad. Maybe.
So.. we are working on this “talking” problem she has. Seems so far, it’s been working. She hasn’t “pulled a card” or been busted for talking or getting up. We’ll see how long that lasts..
My brother got out of jail, (that was fun! NOT) and he has been shipped off to Idaho to go live with the Folks. Good times. 😀 Really tho, I’m glad for him. I am happy it’s all over, that he’s out of jail (I don’t have to go every week for visitation).. and even that he is living in another state. BUT, I miss him already. We got to talk for a couple hours before I had to leave for work, and it reminded me how similar and how damn funny we are!! It’s all good.
I just got back from working in Atlanta… decided that is yet another state I do not want to live in. 😀
I like Hot. Hot is good.. HUMID, HOT AND STICKY.. Not good. 😦 Glad to be back home tho. Really. And the time difference is a total mess… I just get back to a little bit of normal and we get to change the time again this weekend… OY!
Riding / Camping season is upon us.. The BEST time of year to hang out with my kid and just relax and enjoy life.. I for one will be enjoying as many weekends as possible out in the “DIRT” with her and appreciating the desert… I mean really.. is there anything better?
“Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that is the stuff life is made of.”
Ok, I’m sad.. I think I’m a pretty independent person. I mean, I’m a single mother, I own my home, and all of my stuff.. I don’t have a lot of debt (besides my house).. I do a lot on my own. I never really realized how involved my family is in my life tho. Yes, they have stuck their noses where they don’t belong, but I suppose I allowed that.. 🙂 My brother went back to jail last month, and yes, I do realize how much I miss him all the time. It’s his own fault tho and he knows it. He gets out some time next month and is leaving the state for good. He can’t come back. Kinda bums me out.
My parents have moved out of the state as well. So when he gets out, he’ll be moving out there with them. I think that’s a good thing. I hope he can find himself out there. I guess my point is, I miss my family. Indifferent or otherwise, whether we get along or not.. They are my family and I do miss them. And, that makes me a little sad. Kinda thought I would have more to say, but I guess not. Hope you are doing well.
“Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult”