I’ve finally given up. Not in a bad way. Just given up trying to control or change anything. It seems I’m less stressed just letting things just “be”. I can’t change anyone else, well besides Dano, and that is slowly becoming increasingly more difficult. I can control me. I can change me. That’s it. And it’s ok. It’s a good thing. Now, the other part of that is ACCEPTING it. I’m getting there. REALLY slowly. haha. I accept that I can’t change people, but it really is hard to accept that I still WANT to. Ya know? Dano’s Dad for instance. I can’t change him and how he treats or acts with her. I can make suggestions, but I can’t “CHANGE” any of it. I still WANT to tho. Because I am her mother, and we are VERY close, much closer than they have been in years, I WANT to change how he is. Not to be mean, or ruin their relationship, but to help it. Help him understand her, and make it easier maybe? I mean, come on, she’s 12. And getting to “that” point that her hormones are going to make him inSANE. He thought I was bad. HA! Buddy, you got another thing comin. I can deal with her and her mood swings, even her FRIENDS (bestie, whatever they are called). I am the “go to” Mom in answering her friends questions about “girl stuff”. It’s all good. I’m learning what I need to sugar coat, and what I don’t. I like it. I don’t talk to my own mother for reasons besides that we just don’t get along, but all my friends went to her. Not for this stuff per se` but a lot of them called my mom “Mom”. I don’t get that now, nor do I want it, but I AM “DanosMom” and have been since she started school. I like that tho. “DanosMom”.. sounds pretty cool to me. Anyway, today is a good day. No negativity. I can do my best to change Dano in positive ways, and help her to become a proper young lady… but that’s about it. And it’s ok. 🙂
HATE it when all the good intentions are for naught!? Ugh.. This year STARTED off better than I’d hoped.. (notice I didn’t say great.. haha) So I got a new car since Bessie was about to kick the bucket.. So these “dummy” lights (apparently for chicks that don’t seem to know shit about cars.. ) the Downhill Control assist, and the Electronic Stability Control came on while I was driving “Fiona”. (Remember, Dano said the shadow looked like an ogre.. ergo, shrek, or FIONA haha) I was at lunch, coming back from getting me some chili fries at der weiner… (LOVE their chili!!) Once I returned to work, I couldn’t move the shifter into PARK. It wouldn’t go past neutral.. oh realllly. Of course, if said car is not in park, you can’t turn it off, or retrieve keys… FUN!! I found a little chingas next to the shifter, stuck the nail file in there to open it, and pushed down this little lever and then it went into Park. Ok, so crisis averted.
HOWEVER.. did a little googling on said vehicle. Seems 2 others with this issue (identical I might add) had a brake interlock safety switch go bad and the other the drive shaft went bad.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW!?!? I thought since it was used (2011 with 20K miles) the bugs would be “worked out” already.. Le Sigh. Now I’m cranky. Granted, I did buy the extended warranty and stuff, but I JUST GOT THE DAMN THING! Ggrrr Just had to vent.. this just pisses me off. So much for THAT being a good start.. OOH.. and then Dano.. and her grades.. SMDH When will I win THAT war?
I hope to have A LOT of new beginnings this year.. I changed my name.. that was HUGE and a big GOOD change.. 🙂 On Jan 1st I went out and bought me and the kid a new car. “Bessie”, my 04 Tahoe was at 99,991 and I feared wouldn’t last much longer.. so this year, we are starting out with a new car. It’s a car we can afford, and with the gas I was putting in the 11mpg tahoe, it pays for the car. 🙂 VERY happy about that… Actually, I’ll be SAVING $$! We deserve it. She thinks the shadow of it looks like “Shrek”.. so we named the car “Fiona”.. Fi for short, since it IS a girl car.. 😉 The house we are renting, the owners LOVE us so much, they asked if we wanted to BUY the house! I love everything about it. More yard than house.. I spend more time outside anyway. A pool.. 3 br 2 bath.. it’s just perfect. I think in a few months I will look into doing that. Having full custody of Dano now for going on 8 months has been awesome.. we are going to do so much together this year.. little road trips and just being together. Hopefully my job will go back to full time in the first qtr, but in the meantime, I am going to start doing everything I can to get my business www.ieskinnywrap.com up to where it should be. I really would like to quit my job and do my business full time, helping others to become the healthy person they want to be. 🙂 Anyway, I am happy, and content right now. Sure, I could win the lotto and be SUPER happy, but I keep playing.. HAHA Anyway, I hope ALL of you have many new and exciting beginnings this year as well. Together we can make it happen.
Cheers n beers y’all!