I dunno if it’s a “chick thing”, or what, but seriously, for NO REASON I am in “one of those moods”.. I know I’ve been here before, but this time, I don’t know if I’m depressed, or upset or blah or what. I’m tired of being thrown under the bus (work related), repeatedly no less, I’m tired of making people a priority when no one does that for me (everyone in general).. No I don’t do it to get something in return but Christ… I exist too. I need “help” sometimes too. I want friends too.. For reals, this is NOT a pity party.. just venting to get it off my chest I think so maybe I’ll feel better.. Dano is making me I~N~S~A~N~E lately. Her constant “I forgot my homework at school” bullshit is making me go gray like 100x faster than usual. And, I’m SURE I’m losing my hair too now. I told her last night, (not very prettily I might add) that I’m done, and at court next month I’m giving the other parental figure joint custody back. I told her I can’t do it anymore. I go out of my way for her, do everything I can for her, and no matter WHAT I say, it means NOTHING to her. Ya ya she’s almost 12 and is “at that age” where she doesn’t give two shits about what I say blah blah yadda yadda. I don’t care. I am the MOM and if you don’t want to listen to me, and you think it’s bad here.. good, GO STAY WITH HIM.. you will PRAY to whoever to get you out of that.. AGAIN. So, after I let her have it, (on the drive home when I picked her up from “his” house), she immediately walked into the house, went straight to the shower, then got her pj’s on, made both our lunches (samwiches) for today, got all her school work ready (backpack loaded up) and laid out her school clothes. All without me saying a word. Well, besides all the “words” I’d used on the way home. Maybe it did “click”… we’ll see. I’ll have a better idea if she conveniently forgets her homework again today…
side note: I think I use “”””” (quotes) too much.. reminds me of Joey on Friends mis using “air quotes”.. LMAO!
Ok, so yes.. I’m having a hard day.. Am I a horrible mom for telling her what I did about custody? I mean, really, how much am I do put up with?? I can ground her, but that really does nothing because she’d rather be spending her time doing things with me (Weird child, I know)… suggestions?? THOUGHTS?
Category: Kid
Struggles..
Struggles.. that’s a good word.. I haven’t been on in a while.. haven’t been motivated. In the least. That roller coaster I mentioned.. still going on.. some days are better than others of course.. Human nature. Today.. nothing new really.. I’m going to go to a friends wedding in Laughlin at the end of the month.. 15 minute wedding, and then on the water by 10am.. gotta love it. Nice 3 day weekend. The kid has been gone for 2 weeks in Lake Tahoe with her aunt.. She has been swimming, playing in the lake (but not too far in.. there are crawdads you know.. LOL) oh, and white water rafting.. she texted me the whole time she was gone telling me of all she did.. I love that she’s 9 yrs old, and that she is responsible enough to let “MOM” know what’s going on.. like “Hi mom, going to play mini golf.. love you!” Love that.. 😀
FUN..
Oh my goodness… had a ball last night.. So the kid had an appt with a psychologist (she goes every week) but, we were actually having fun shopping and decided not to go this week.. I “REALLY” needed to spend some quality time with my kid.. (for my benefit.. )
Smiling..
So, it’s been a pretty good week.. Kinda random and funny actually.. Monday was pretty good.. worked, watched some movies, could NOT go to sleep.. was up til about 145am, then finally fell asleep (pretty sure.. ) and was up at 545am for work. Wonder of wonders, I wasn’t TIRED. Kinda nice actually. Maybe I’m getting too much sleep.. is that possible? Anyway.. Oh! My friend.. seems she fractured TWO bones, and another one got “pushed back”.. So the specialist pulled it forward and it’s in a splint now.. til like tuesday. And she’s off work.. how nice is that to have like a bazillion sick hours and be able to veg out for a whole week and do nothing.. I hate that she’s hurt, but I’m jealous of that.. 😀
Holidays are comin….
Sorry, but that just SUCKS. I mean, the day after Halloween, they start with the Christmas music. I remember (not too long ago I thought) when Christmas music didn’t start until the day after Thanksgiving… what happened?!?! In a couple years, they’ll start the “CHRISTMAS SEASON” on July 5th. Blech.
Well, after spending MANY years with a multitude of family and them slowly dying or moving away, Christmas became rather Blah. Then came the kid. And of course, as she gets older, Christmas is becoming a little more fun I guess. Just seeing her light up putting up decorations is just great. I decided when the kid was born that I wasn’t going to do the whole red/green Christmas colors anymore.. Too many memories from Me being a kid.. I like Blue. So I changed Christmas at my house to Blue, White and Silver. (Not for any religions reasons, I just like it). And so does she. So tonight, I think after school me and the kid are going to start the Christmas festivities and begin decorating. That really sets it off for me.. Seeing her get so excited about it all. Kinda nice for me too tho, I let her decorate how ever she wants. So she is rather proud of herself for a great job, and I get to see all her hard work and that big huge smile on her face…
So, the holidays are coming, and ok, I’m getting a little better with it all.. I’ll let ya know how the decorating goes…
“Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family:
Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.” Jane Howard
My Baby..
So I decided that for the “picture”… i’ll just change it up as my mood changes… I like todays Ha Ha
Anyway, so Yesterday was Halloween… Went to a friends to help move furniture around in the new house and take the kid trick or treating. Was a good night.. kinda chilly, bunch of friends, kids, beer and a firepit. (No not kids and beer, kids got candy.. LOL) It was a fun time all around. So my kid went out twice and got a grip of candy. Like she really needs that. So we came back to the house, and somehow ran out of candy to hand out. So my kid, God love her, gave up all her candy to give out to the trick or treaters. And, it was her idea. I was so proud. She is just great. 😀
She did go back out with some friends, and got a little more candy that she got to keep.. so, I just HAD to share that, because she is soo awesome. My Baby Girl…
“Do unto others…. “
Me Time..
Well, I got my “Me” time.. LOL. I got sick. Had to take time off work, and spent 4 days just relaxing and resting and sleeping. A LOT. 14 or so hours a night, and then napping during the day. To be honest.. It was really nice. Anyway, my brother finishes his time in 6 days. Then he’s off to Idaho to live with the folks. I”m happy for him, he really needs to get out of here.. I’ll be leaving around the same time to go out of state for work. Just for a couple days, but it will be really nice to get away for that short period of time.
Because I have been doing everything for everyone else lately, I seem to have been neglecting my kid. Not in the sense that I don’t talk to her or ignore her. I have just assumed she was doing well at school, and doing homework as she should. Ya, Not exactly. Now, I’m having issues with her… She doesn’t seem to want to do any school work. Or stop talking during class. Or stop getting out of her seat.. Go figure. I could say “she’s 7, they do that”, but I think it’s more of a lack of my parenting skills. Or maybe teaching skills. So I need to spend more time with her, and “teach” her things. I’m not the smartest person, but I think I have some things that I can teach her to maybe help her along. All I want is for her to succeed. Somehow. And I will do whatever I have to, to help her. She is going to have it better than I did. I want her to have everything she wants, but to also APPRECIATE it all.
Ok, enough of my whining.. She is a good kid tho. I know she is normal. Well, as far as normal goes right?
“A characteristic of the normal child is he doesn’t act that way very often.” Author Unknown