What’s new..

I HATE being uninspired.  My last entry was a few months back… And the end result of THAT day was damn near the same as any other day in court..  Pieces of data were missing, someone needs to find it..  blah blah..  Back again next month. Fast forward a few months.  Feb 15th.  I won’t go into the annoying shitty details, but now rather than going to his house sat 8am she goes Friday after school.  She’s very angry.  The counselor flat out LIED in her report and put words into my mouth that were never said.  Long story short, I’m kind of GLAD she goes Friday – Sunday night now.  These last few months have been… beyond rough.  Arguments escalated between she and I as well as he and I.  And she turned 13 this month to boot.  AND that whole “became a woman” thing hit.  She’s an emotional hormonal wreck.  I have just been ignoring everything.  I stopped my smoothies, and my diet went to shit.  I have gained like 10 lbs in the last few months.  My jeans don’t fit.  What did I do? How did I get here?   Doesn’t really matter anymore.  I have already started changing things.  🙂  One is I got my new Vitamix 750 Pro.  OH BOY DO I LOVE IT.  I’m back on my smoothies and have already dropped a few pounds because of it.  A friend of mine has some health issues, so I told him he should be drinking green smoothies..  I made the following recipe and brought him some.  He was REALLY surprised how yummy it was…  It’s nice to help others.. balances out shitty days at home.  🙂 

6 or so leaves of Kale
a handful of Italian Parsely
a handful of regular Parsely
6 leaves Dandelion Root
a peeled knuckle size chunk of ginger
a few shakes of cinnamon
2 tsp raw organic honey
some ground up rolled oats (like flour consistency)
10oz green tea
1/2 fresh pineapple WITH the core
1 green apple
1 banana
1 orange (WITH the white pith skin part)
1 bag organic frozen raspberries
2 tsp flax meal
2 tsp maca powder
1/2 lemon juice

Blend it all in a big blender, it yields about 64 ounces of yummy smoothies…  I usually put 1/2 in 32oz mason jars and drink one each day.  1/2 for Breakfast and 1/2 for lunch or snack.  GOOD stuff…  Note:  I never measure smoothies.. just toss stuff into the blender… if it doesn’t taste good after blending, just add more sweet stuff  🙂
Tonight I am going to mix it up and use a grapefruit and add some cucumber.. 
Have a great day er’body~

Today…

is the day.  Moving day ~ ish.  haha  I’ve been packing for 2 weeks, and shit canning a bunch of stuff.  Did the yard sale thing, which reminded me WHY I don’t do yard sales… helped my friends move (quid pro quo, he’s helping me tonight since I have NO ONE ELSE TO HELP ME).. got a concussion, cleaned, and still not ready to go!  HAHAHAHA
Back to the concussion.. so we got all kinds of shit moved in at their new apartment, and the last thing I was doing was separating the entertainment center more to accommodate their big ass television.  Didn’t know the “top piece” wasn’t attached and it came crashing down on my head.  Oh, and the force of that smashed the OTHER side of my head on the other part of the unit.  Woo… that was fun.  So I got the proverbial headache, and couldn’t sleep that night.. Next day I was a useless wreck.  I shit you not, I was on the couch, and could NOT be bothered to watch NASCAR, OR drink beer.  Ya something was wrong.  Vomiting ensued, pressure in my head, couldn’t sleep… So long story short, took myself to the ER Monday, AFTER I went to the bank to get 3 more cashiers checks to give to the Realtor in order to get the keys to the new house.  I give them to her, and she says “Oh, the homeowner is at the house, he has the keys and garage door opener, you need to go there now.”  Great, just what I need.. pull over by the cows and vomit on my way to meet him.  Good Times!
Got my stuff, quick introductions, and “hey, this.. this and this is broken, need it fixed asap”..  and I’m off to the ER.  After x-rays and a CT scan, there was no bleed, just a bit of swelling. Dr said to “REST, the remainder of the week”  I told him I had to work, and pack and move etc… He said “Fine, wear a helmet then.”  UGH.  So I took Tuesday off too.  Dano and I made quite a few trips to the new house, unloading kitchen stuff, and a TON of clothes.  Last night, I finished up the kitchen for the most part, and cleaned the stove, oven, microwave, counter tops and back splash crap.  
This brings me to, today.  Moving day.  Not even CLOSE to ready.  haha
I pulled the couch apart yesterday to vacuum it.  ERMAHGERD my dogs shed WAAAAY worse than me.  I bought a “Sticky buddy”… piece of shit. Don’t waste your money.  Now I gotta but a couple of those lint rollers at the Dollar tree.. 
There are people currently at the new place shampooing carpets and stretching them. (Nice big ass lump down the middle.. ugly)  Sooooo My buddy Eric is bringing a 16′ trailer so we can get all the big stuff (Washer/Dryer/Fridge/couches/beds/desks/tables yadda yadda) to the new house just to leave it in the GARAGE.  hhmmm  Then after work, tomorrow, go back to the old house to get the rest of the trivial shit, and CLEAN some more.  Oh, and paint.  Since Lilah liked ONE damn spot to lay, she dirtied ONE spot on the wall.  One of the 7 (SEVEN) colors of the interior of the house, and the ONLY touch up can of paint that was DRIED to a solid.  Valspar is OVERPRICED and charged me like $17 for a damn QUART of damn paint.  (deep breath)  So tonight I guess I’m sleeping in the garage of the new house.  Or at the old house, with NOTHING goin on, and sleeping on the floor.  Decisions Decisions. 



Update:  I forgot I got new Lavender “Bath salts” for my new tub… guess I’m staying at the new place tonight… 😉 

Is it just me..

I dunno if it’s a “chick thing”, or what, but seriously, for NO REASON I am in “one of those moods”.. I know I’ve been here before, but this time, I don’t know if I’m depressed, or upset or blah or what.  I’m tired of being thrown under the bus (work related), repeatedly no less, I’m tired of making people a priority when no one does that for me (everyone in general)..  No I don’t do it to get something in return but Christ… I exist too.  I need “help” sometimes too.  I want friends too..  For reals, this is NOT a pity party.. just venting to get it off my chest I think so maybe I’ll feel better..  Dano is making me I~N~S~A~N~E lately.  Her constant “I forgot my homework at school” bullshit is making me go gray like 100x faster than usual.  And, I’m SURE I’m losing my hair too now.  I told her last night, (not very prettily I might add) that I’m done, and at court next month I’m giving the other parental figure joint custody back.  I told her I can’t do it anymore. I go out of my way for her, do everything I can for her, and no matter WHAT I say, it means NOTHING to her.  Ya ya she’s almost 12 and is “at that age” where she doesn’t give two shits about what I say blah blah yadda yadda.  I don’t care.  I am the MOM and if you don’t want to listen to me, and you think it’s bad here.. good, GO STAY WITH HIM.. you will PRAY to whoever to get you out of that.. AGAIN.  So, after I let her have it, (on the drive home when I picked her up from “his” house), she immediately walked into the house, went straight to the shower, then got her pj’s on, made both our lunches (samwiches) for today, got all her school work ready (backpack loaded up) and laid out her school clothes.  All without me saying a word.  Well, besides all the “words” I’d used on the way home.  Maybe it did “click”… we’ll see.  I’ll have a better idea if she conveniently forgets her homework again today…  


side note:  I think I use “”””” (quotes) too much.. reminds me of Joey on Friends mis using “air quotes”.. LMAO!


Ok, so yes.. I’m having a hard day..  Am I a horrible mom for telling her what I did about custody? I mean, really, how much am I do put up with?? I can ground her, but that really does nothing because she’d rather be spending her time doing things with me (Weird child, I know)… suggestions?? THOUGHTS?

Don’t you..

HATE it when all the good intentions are for naught!?  Ugh.. This year STARTED off better than I’d hoped.. (notice I didn’t say great.. haha)  So I got a new car since Bessie was about to kick the bucket..  So these “dummy” lights (apparently for chicks that don’t seem to know shit about cars.. ) the Downhill Control assist, and the Electronic Stability Control came on while I was driving “Fiona”. (Remember, Dano said the shadow looked like an ogre.. ergo, shrek, or FIONA haha) I was at lunch, coming back from getting me some chili fries at der weiner… (LOVE their chili!!) Once I returned to work, I couldn’t move the shifter into PARK.  It wouldn’t go past neutral.. oh realllly.  Of course, if said car is not in park, you can’t turn it off, or retrieve keys… FUN!!  I found a little chingas next to the shifter, stuck the nail file in there to open it, and pushed down this little lever and then it went into Park.  Ok, so crisis averted.  
HOWEVER.. did a little googling on said vehicle.  Seems 2 others with this issue (identical I might add) had a brake interlock safety switch go bad and the other the drive shaft went bad..  ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW!?!? I thought since it was used (2011 with 20K miles) the bugs would be “worked out” already..  Le Sigh.  Now I’m cranky.  Granted, I did buy the extended warranty and stuff, but I JUST GOT THE DAMN THING! Ggrrr  Just had to vent.. this just pisses me off. So much for THAT being a good start..  OOH.. and then Dano.. and her grades.. SMDH When will I win THAT war?